Years ago, I had Mowgli to get me out of bed. Often I would say, "He's the only thing that gets me up in the morning!" He was a huge ray of sunshine in my life when I needed him, but he also did get me up every morning! He did this thing, where at 8 AM he would sit at the foot of the bed, whine while staring longingly at the door, then glance over at me to see if I noticed, then he would do it again and again until I got up. It was the perfect thing I needed to get myself up in the morning. I'd let him out, and by that time, I would be awake enough to shower.
Now, I have these two goofy dogs, Wicket and Meko... who could sleep in until noon or later! My excuse of "He's the only thing that gets me up in the morning!" can't be used... because Meko sleeps on my right, and Wicket sleeps on my left. They are adorable when they sleep. Meko kicks and moves around in his sleep. He drinks in his sleep, sometimes he barks a bit in his sleep. But, he does kick. Hard. Wicket is a funny sleeper too. He starts off in my arms snuggling agains my neck, but ends up at the foot of the bed, or above my pillow. He gets too hot, then too cold and treks around the bed on a quest to find the perfect temperate. Which is in my arms.. I'm sure.
What I'm trying to tell you is that these guys will keep sleeping and sleeping!
I've had the hardest time getting out of bed lately. When I was working getting up at 7 was easy. I had people depending on me to be there. When I had Mowgli I had him depending me to help him eat. Lately I've been having the hardest time getting out of bed. Right now, it's 9:15 PM and I'm wide awake. I feel like myself. I'm telling myself I will be up at 8 AM. I will do Yoga, then I will meditate, it will be awesome. I feel awake fully. I feel like myself. But, soon I will go to bed, and tomorrow morning, at 8 AM I will look at my clock, and I will be different.
Lately it's been like this: My alarm wakes me up at 8AM I push snooze without even being able to help it. Even if I put my phone across the room, I will sleep walk, push snooze and go back to sleep. By the time snooze goes off, around 8:09 my brain thinks, "8:09?? I can't wake up at such an odd number. 8:30 it is!" 8:30 goes off, and and I sleep through that too. And that sort of a thing continues. 10:11 just isn't an acceptable time to wake up, but sleeping for 4 more minutes wouldn't work, so I set it to 10:30, but I'm just not thinking straight enough to get up, so the snooze button get's pushed. It's like morning makes me a totally different person. Finally by 11 I feel sooo guilty for sleeping in. I get up and am sluggish and groggy for the next 3 hours unable to get much work done. I've even had Sterling call me and try to wake me up over the phone.
I seriously feel like such a different person in the morning than I do at night. I've tried a few different things. Lists, setting my clothes out, drinking water, drinking coffee, all sorts of things. I'm sure a lot of it is re-training my body and my brain to wake up. But, this is something I've been battling for a while now. It's something that is actually driving me crazy. Because right now, in this moment I can tell you that I want to wake up at 7 or 8 AM. But, once that time comes around, I'm like a totally different person.
I've got some more ideas for tomorrow. I'll try to keep you updated on the progress. Cause this has been a pretty crazy battle between myself. I'm big into astrology. I'm an Aries Dragon. Which are both huge energetic and dynamic signs! I normally have quite a bit of energy. I can normally get by on very little sleep. But these past few months have been very disheartening. Even depressing! I'm not one to sleep all day. I don't know if this is depression. I don't know if it's laziness. I don't feel depressed... but I feel very sluggish, foggy, cloudy, and groggy. Often I'll wake up to headache, or sometimes even nausea. I'm sure a lot of this is I need to drink more water, eat better... which I actually eat pretty well! But, lack of water is a problem of mine. Anyways.. this is just brainstorming.. trying to figure this problem out in writing. Hoping to work through it. Tomorrow I do plan on trying to be up at 7AM.