Saturday, March 1, 2014
Please be the winter blues.. Cause I can't take this much longer.
I've been very depressed. Again. I'm not sure when or if this will ever go away.
Or if this is something I will have to live with. Like always wearing a hood that keeps falling into my face..,
Or walking upstream a raging river, constantly tripping over a loose rock, being forced under the rapids.
And when you finally see clearly, or as clear as you can... you start to question the point of everything.
And everything feels so numb.. and so pointless.. and you kind of just crawl back into bed.
I'm searching my memory for how I used to cope with this.. How I used to get out of this, because I know I've done it successfully before. Even if it doesn't last long. It's better than this. Something... anything is better than this.
And I'm very thankful it's a new month, and the new moon is over... March used to bring me so much happiness, but all that changed a few years ago. Here is to hoping March will be a good month. A plea to myself to make it such.