And Now It's My Turn

I hope you remember this special post.  I know I do.
Well, now it's MY turn.

I wasn't against love when we met. I just wasn't interested in anyone. I was turning down a lot of dates and people. I just wasn't interested in a relationship. I wanted to focus on myself. Because who can I trust more than myself?  You all saw my posts about that. I was super independent.

Late one night someone on facebook messaged me. I have a lot of facebook friends, a lot of them are blog readers like you and I am always open to chat with you guys and anyone on facebook. So, I chatted back. It was a boy named Sterling. We had been friends on facebook for a little while, but I didn't know much about him. He started talking about reflexology and astral projection. Astral projection is an out of body experience, like dream travel in a way. Something that I am interested in, but never really talked about on the blog. So, having someone talk to ME about it was exciting. We chatted for a few minutes and he got my interest. Sterling said he was in town for a few days before going back to LA and asked me to meet up and get some coffee. I figured it was perfect. He lived in a different state, we would talk about our weird stuff I would have a new friend and that would be all.

I got ready the next day, I wasn't nervous at all, because I wasn't planning on dating him. I wasn't meeting up for a date.  I wasn't dressed to impress. I didn't even know what he looked like. I figured I would go, get some coffee and he would find me.

I drove up to Coffee Pod, a coffee shop in my town, and started walking to the door. And that's when I saw him. I looked into his eyes and kind of tilted my head to the side. I have never seen this man in my life, but I recognized those eyes. I couldn't help it. I gave him a hug and said hello. I planned on staying for about 20 minutes, but I didn't leave for over two hours! I gave him a ride home and was a bit embarrassed about my 26 year old car. Sterling was the coolest guy I ever met! He was wearing a straw fedora, and carried a bag of crystals with him. You don't get much cooler than that in my book. We got in my car, and I explained, "This is my adventure car. It is 26 years old and has no reverse. It's a lesson in life... you can only move forward." I dropped him off and gave him one last hug. We made eye contact again for a second, and I felt that feeling of familiarity again. So familiar it was strange not to kiss him goodbye. It took everything to not to look behind me at his as I drove away. I was focusing my attention on asking my car, "WHY? WHY? WHY?! WHY NOW?!" Why did I just meet a great guy who lives so far away?! And why did I have the urge to kiss him?!

I remember, later that night he mentioned the world had made him so hard he hadn't cried in quite some time. I said, "Just you wait... I'm going to open you up so much you will cry again, not just tears of sadness but tears of joy too. But along with that, I will make sure to make you smile every singe day."

I knew I couldn't forget him. Ever.

He later moved back to LA, and we kept in contact the best we could. He moved around a bit, and we kept in contact. He called, and we wrote letters. We really got to know each other through those times. We learned that we both got married days apart, and our divorces went through days apart as well. When he living in the north, I was living in the south, and when he was on the west coast I was on the east coast. We learned that we have been through a lot of the same things. We were able to connect from a distance.
I was very busy, working two jobs and working 12 hours a day. I didn't have time for a real boyfriend so the letters and phone calls were perfect for me.

But, my life was off balance. Too much work, not enough love.

Fast forward to now.... He is here, and I work much much less. My life has balance again. Because I am in love. We have slow mornings with breakfast and coffee. He writes and I paint or draw. I make us some coffee and we talk at the table, I make us dinner and we sit outside and look at the stars together. We dream together of traveling, of living in a little trailer and exploring the country. We talk about living in different countries and helping people. We read books together, and study together. We watch Doctor Who (I converted him!!) and we laugh and play like kids in love. We run errands and cook together like adults in love. We practice moon ceremonies and connect together like spirits in love.

And when I look at him, I still recognize him.

And I know he recognizes me too.

I am so in love with this man, it makes me feel a bit crazy. He is the most amazing person I've ever met. I feel so honored to be at his side. He is my best friend, and my equal. (I've never felt that in a relationship before!) He sees the world the same way I do, and he and I grow together. He gets me, and I get him. I'm honored to have him be a part of my life, and a part of this blog so you can all get the chance to know him and us together. We are going to embark on some wonderful adventures... and you are welcome to join us.