Saturday, March 31, 2012


(I know I've shared this before, but I just love it.)

Friday, March 30, 2012


The blossoms are coming in down here. 
The trees look like they are covered in lace and ruffles. 
I love that Spring always follows winter, like flowers follow the rain. 
It's a big lesson about life. 

I ended up having a pretty good birthday yesterday. 
I got off work, and drove my car to the shop, 
our mechanic told us he could try to fix the transmission, but there were no guarantees it would fix it. 
Brad and I spent the next 2 hours driving from auto part store to auto part store looking for the part. 

We then left the car in his hands over night and went to visit my parents.
I was quite spoiled from that point forward. 
My mom made sure I left with groceries, some clothes, a plant, a grocery card, 
and a wad of cash that made me cry from gratitude.

We ate dinner and went and got ice cream. 
We then went to Brad's mom's house 
where she gave me a %100 biodegradable planter and some seeds.

Brad gave me his presents then, which included a Star Wars eco-shopping bag,
both x-files movies, and season 3 of the x-files.
Brad also paid for my car to be fixed.

I went to bed with a smile on my face, and actually slept through the night.
(It's been a very long time.)

We picked the car up from the shop today.
The car is doing a bit better.
Reverse will be a luxury.. and I can go backwards when the car will let me. 
But, I should try to park in places where I don't need to reverse. 
This will be an adventure. 
But, I guess it's a personal lesson to me, to keep moving forward. 

Brad says it's just a little "quirk" my car has. 

Today, Brad and I are going to Salt Lake City for an antique shopping adventure. 
And hopefully home depot for some gardening supplies. 

Thank you all so much for the birthday wishes and emails. 
I will respond to them all as soon as possible.
You've made me a very happy girl. 

Thursday, March 29, 2012

Making Sunshine: an Outfit Post, a Sale, and Happy Birthday to Me

Guys..  remember yesterday's post? 
About how my car was working, and a weight has been lifted off?
 I guess I spoke to soon.
 The car will be in the shop getting it's transmission looked at, and then new transmission fluid. 
Which I hear can make things better, but it can also make things worse. 
This might just be the end of my "friendship" with my car. 
Which will leave me once again car-less.

I broke down and cried to my mom yesterday. 
I cried to Brad and to Wicket.
And, I nearly cried to the friendly stranger at the grocery store who said, 
"Are you the talk2thetrees girl?"
I'm so sorry I looked like a total mess. I had been crying all day.

I'm trying to figure out a plan. 
I can't afford a new car, but I might be able to afford a scooter. 
Biking to work isn't an option since I work on the top of a very very big and steep hill.
So, I'm currently saving up for a new vehicle, of the motor-scooter type.

I'm trying so hard to make some sunshine out of this. 
I'm trying so hard to stay positive.

Today, I'm not going to worry about my taxes, debt or car problems.. 
(At least I will try..)
Because today is my birthday. 

And I just don't want to worry. 

I woke up with 92 notifications of people wishing me a Happy Birthday on Facebook.  
A few happy birthday texts.,
some snuggles from my darling puppy.
And a wonderful box of handmade paper, and art supplies from my roommate Destinee. 
This all made me a pretty happy girl.

My heart is still pretty heavy due to the stress, but I'm working on making my own sunshine.
To be honest, I'm not a huge fan of my birthday. 
I don't like that I'm getting older than I feel..

So, today to celebrate.. 
I'm having a sale in BOTH shops. 
Enter the code happybirthday24 and receive 24% off your whole purchase.
 The sale closes at midnight.
And all proceeds will be extremely appreciated, and will go directly to my vehicle problem.
And, if you are like me,  strapped for cash, or don't want to buy anything.
Don't worry, please please.  I still want to be your friend.
But, I would love it if you helped spread the word about the sale..
 on twitter or facebook or blogger or something. 

Dress: Thrifted
Sweater: Thrifted
Boots: Charlotte Russe
Socks: Gifted

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

A Beautiful World

I've been extremely stressed lately. 
3 things have been weighing in on me lately.

My car, and the fact that it's been un-driveable for 3 months.
Taxes and the impending doom of math.
And of course the lovely debt that stacked up due to divorce. 

I was finally able to take my car in yesterday. The nice man at the car shop helped fix it up for a pretty decent price, and one huge weight has been lifted from me. I needed a new thermostat, a new alternator, a new transmission line, and I had a leak in the head gasket. Scary stuff, but it seems to be running fine now.. So I'm keeping a prayer in my heart every time I drive it.

This weekend I will tackle taxes a bit more. I've been adding numbers a bit every day, but my brain can't handle to do it all at once. So, I do bit by bit every once in a while, and try to drink some calming tea to help me sleep at night. I'll be honest.. it's pretty stressful.

And then the debt.. it's something I've been working on for a while now. One day I will be debt free, and my debt is only a fraction of what the average is.. but debt is debt, and stress is stress.

These things have really been taking a toll on me. It's been stressful beyond belief, and caused me many sleepless nights. It's scary doing this on my own. Really scary. But, I knew that I would have money problems when I went into this newly divorced life. It's been a year or so since the divorce, but I'm still on my own when it comes to money.

My wonderful boyfriend Brad offers to help constantly, but I'm so stubborn. I don't want to take anyone's money. Not ever. But, the thing that brings me comfort at night on those sleepless nights, is the thought, that if I did need help, I could turn to Brad. He is the one who tells me to not give up my dreams and not to quit painting, just to make money.

But I'm going to be honest.. This has been very hard, and it's making me dislike life just a bit.
I have very woeful moments, and I just don't feel myself in those woeful moments.

So, I'm working on remembering.. that it's still a beautiful world.
And these problems are actually very small in comparison.

And life is full of lessons, 
sometimes the biggest things we can take from them, 
is how to be happy despite our problems. 

And as I was writing this post I was reminded of the time
Brad and I drove up the mountain a little ways.
We stopped and walked to the ledge, and looked over at the city.
We really are so tiny.

So, I'm trying to work on my perspective and my attitude a little bit. 
Because going through life stricken with worry and stress is unhealthy.
 Living life that you just don't like is even worse. 

It truly is a beautiful world.

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

The Things Of Spring

My Newest Painting "The Things Of Spring"

11x14x.5 mixed media 
8x10 prints available in the shop. 

This painting was based from some of my favorite things of spring. 
Birds, daffodils, pastel colors, dresses and of course silly hats. 

The Festival Of Colors

This year we celebrated the first days of Spring at the Holi Festival again.
I actually hate being dirty, 
and the panic of not being able to breath after the countdown is frightening.
But I love the Festival of Colors.

If you are new to my blog, and miss my post last year, here is a little about the festival:
Holi is a religious festival celebrated by the Hindu Religion that welcomes spring. 
People through scented and colored powder into the air and on each other.
There is music and dancing and bonfires. 
Originally, it was a festival that commemorated good harvests and the fertile land. In addition to celebrating the coming of spring, Holi has even greater purposes. Hindus believe it is a time of enjoying spring's abundant colors and saying farewell to winter. 

Most of the people who attend the Festival here in Utah are BYU students and Highschool students. 
It's actually become a bit of an annoyance to see facebook flooded with photos of people going to a festival they know nothing about. People go in silly costumes, and completely trash the temple and the grounds. I even heard one person say "I wish I could be Jewish, so I could celebrate like this." 
I rolled my eyes. 
But then the festival coordinator walked onto stage while the band behind him was setting up.
He explained the festival a little bit, and said he knew the majority of the crowd wasn't Hindu.
He said that wasn't the point. The point was that we were all together celebrating Spring. 
Then he asked us to hug 20 strangers and tell them we love them. 
Because that's what this life is all about..
 And in the end, God won't ask us what religion we were, or what our job was. 
We would be asked if we loved our fellow man.

This photo was before the actual count down. 
Thank you kyle for photo bombing another photo, 
and thank you for doing it when I had my slr.. instead of my expensive film.

After the throwing.

I actually had to re-bleach my hair.
The colored powder (which is just cornstarch) stained my blonde a nasty green.
And here is my video from last year.. I didn't get video this year.
I actually put my camera away and danced.