It must be the 12-12-12 reborn feeling. (Read about that here)
I woke up and realized, I don't like my life right now.
I'm working too much, and doing too few fun things.
I often pull 12 hour days, and come home dead tired. The last thing I want to do is paint, or go out and take photos and explore. That isn't like me. I love to find adventure. I love to meditate outside. I love to explore and take photographs. Instead, I come home dragging my feet in exhaustion, I sit next to my puppy on the couch and I just sit. Unable to do anything else. Unable to think of things to post on the blog. Unable to sketch in my book. I have two weeks left of teaching, and I'm back at the flower shop working extra hours since a lot of people quit. I'm overworking myself with things that I don't like.
I used to be a full time artist, traveling the country and exploring. I miss that. I will have that again.
I may need to take a leap.... quit my jobs and just try.
That's a scary thought, but I would be so happy.
I'm speaking at a student's graduation tomorrow.. I have yet to write the speech, but I think I'm going to be talking about wasting potential... and how much potential we all have, and why it would be a shame to sit idly by, just existing instead of doing what we love. In preparing for this speech, I have realized how many days I have wasted just by working. I've been working like this for over 8 months, and I'm done.
This new year.... I am done overworking. Done working a job that doesn't mean anything to me. I will focus on my art and my blog and make that my full time job. Even if it means being poor.
I would rather be poor and painting, then well fed and busy.
I just thought I would share that all with you.
Because life is short, and each year passes faster than the previous one.
I love, love, love this. ♥
ReplyDeleteThis is great! My dad posted this video on Facebook a couple weeks ago, and I've been meaning to post it on my blog. http://youtu.be/yUTeEjf8V1k It's about doing what you love. That it's better to live a short, poor life doing something that makes you happy, than live a long rich one where you are miserable.
ReplyDeleteI have been feeling the same way recently and struggling with other peoples expectations of me. thank you for this :)
ReplyDeleteI often feel the same, like I'm living in a box and never go outside to explore. I love blogging too, take picture and share it. :)
ReplyDeleteI envy you, you're good at painting. That is my wish if I could choose what talent I could have. :)
Cheer and keep fighting
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I love this! I feel that's what ends up happening to a lot of us. We become swallowed by our jobs and we start to lose focus on what we really want to do with out lives. I hope starting this new year your able to get back to the person you were, doing the things you love and never stop! It's already a struggle getting back into doing the things we love so never give up!
ReplyDeleteLove this! Life is way too short to spend being miserable!
ReplyDeleteYou took the words right out of my mouth! I really needed to hear that today!
ReplyDeleteI have been working too much for 5 years, a full time day job and a full time overnight job, working 16 hours, for 4 years and now I only have a part time overnight job. I have had enough too.
People's expectations of me and what I "should" do is clashing violently with what I "need" to do to stay true to myself.
I want to write, and do DIY projects. I know I will need a job to be able to actually do that until I start earning, but I just need a "job" to pay the bills and have enough food in my stomach, I don't need to work all day and all night, it makes me too exhausted and I end up just thinking about doing the stuff I'd love to do and that isn't going to get me started on my dreams. I must begin now.
New Year, New ME!
Thanks for posting this and I thank myself for finding it! LOL