Solitaire

I'm playing a game of solitaire right now. 

My relationship has been set to single for a while now.

And I must say, I'm doing well. 

 I don't want to be the type who goes from relationship to relationship. 

I want to be the type who can stand on their own two feet.

I want to be strong with myself.

For myself.

Because in the end, that will only help my future relationship.

I guess what I am trying to say is that I'm single, not looking, and quite happy.

I don't feel like I need to rush. 

If something is bound to happen, it will happen.

 In the right time, with the right person, for the right reasons.

 

There are definitely bad days where I wish I could have someone hold me and tell me things will be alright.

When things get tough, the only person I have is myself. 

Which isn't actually a problem, because I can trust myself more than I can trust anyone else in this world.

And, if anyone is going to make things alright, it will be me. 

I've been alone before. 

And like I've said many times, alone doesn't mean lonely. 

I've also been extremely picky with who I've let around me.

I've been on a few dates, and I've asked to be taken home early because I was treated poorly.

I've kicked boys out of my house for being rude to me. 

I've flat out turned people down, without tact.

I've let people know I'm not looking for a relationship,

then about ripped heads off when they said they just wanted me physically.

Like I said, I'm not rushing things. 

I'm focusing on me, and my work, and my life.

The perfect guy will fit in perfectly.  

 

 And right now, that perfect guy happens to be Wicket.

Though I will tell you guys a secret... 

 I've got a crush on a certain boy. 

He lives far away. 

We write letters.

And currently, that's exactly what I need,

Hopefully Mystery Boy won't look at this.

Awkward.