Spreading Peace

I woke up in a grumpy mood.. well, maybe not woke up. 

I didn't get much sleep at all last night to be honest. 

If you follow me on twitter, I'm sure you've heard me complain about the upstairs neighbors. 

They can't help it, but they are very loud.

I didn't get much sleep because,

there is a weak spot in the ceiling, (their floors) right about my head.

It sounds like they might fall through! It is the loudest sound in the world when you are trying to sleep. It doesn't help that they go to bed after me, and walk all around there before bed,

and it doesn't help that they wake up two hours earlier and walk all around. 

This morning they were up at four. So was I.

I wanted to pound on the ceiling and tell them I was trying to sleep.

I wanted to go up there in my pajamas and tell them to be quiet.

But I didn't, and I can't.

Because they are just walking.

That's what people do.

I didn't get much sleep because Destinee's cat cried all night.

After the flea outbreak, he's the only one who remains flea infested, 

so he is in the bathroom until the flea medicine kicks in.

He isn't happy about it. 

So, he cries.

He knocks over all my makeup, 

spills it into a messy pile of broken powder at 4 am.

He tears up the toilet paper roll.

He yells and cries some more.

Right next to my room. 

I wanted to go in there and tell him to be quiet.

I wanted to spray him with a squirt gun until he is good and wet.

But I didn't, and I can't.

Because he is just a cat. 

That's what cats do.

I didn't get much sleep because I had a horrible nightmare about Mowgli.

So horrible, the thought brings tears to my eyes, 

and I can't go into deatail.

Lets just say, I woke up crying louder than the cat.

But, I can't do anything about those dreams either.

I've been grumpy all day. 

Things are bothering me, and they are beyond my control.

I was so upset this morning.

I honked at another driver.

I looked up apartments online.

I complained to Brad.

I complained to myself.

I just knew today would be a bad day.

But then, I stopped.

That isn't me.

I'm not someone who complains and hates.

I don't get grumpy often, and I like that.

So,

I'm changing today.

I wanted to show you my new paintings from this week, but realized they are not yet edited enough.

The only one I have is this one. 

I realize, she isn't the prettiest girl in the world.
She has ferns for hair, but only on half of her head.
Her eyes are uneven, and her lips are a bit big.
But I love her.

I painted her just the way she is.
She turned out just as she should.
And I put one of my favorite quotes by Sadako Sasaki on the painting.


I guess to me, this painting symbolizes,
no matter what,
no matter what you look like, who you are,
what you've been through, or are going through.
You can spread peace.

And so can I.

I  can't blame others for things that just happen.
I can't be angry for things no one can help.
So I won't.
I choose to spread peace today, and be happy.

p.s. ever wish there was a magic button to make it everything okay?
Here it is!