Thursday, March 17, 2011

Last Moments

My last moments with Mowgli involved:

Taking him out of the hospital for some sunlight.
The coon. (His favorite toy)
A whole pizza all to himself.
He ate the cheese off of half of the pizza.
He also ate about 2 pieces.
There was sauce all over him.
He was a happy happy pup.
If he could wag his tail, it would be going a mile a minute.
Lots and lots of tears.
Lots and lots of kisses. 
Lots of snuggling.
Lots of hugs.
Lots of I love you's.
And strangely a few smiles.
I knew this was best for him,
even though it was hard. 

I held his little face in my hands as he went, with my forehead pressed against his.. so our third eyes were touching. I told him he was beautiful. I told him I loved him more than he knew. I thanked him for the lessons he has taught me, and the example he has been. I told him how sorry I was that I couldn't keep him with me. I called him my angel, and my sunshine.

And as his eyes closed.. I told him to walk again and go eat some more pizza. Extra cheese.

And now I sit in bed, wearing Brad's hoodie for comfort, missing my snuggle partner..

Yet, I honestly can say.. I feel his spirit with me.


  1. I teared up when I read this.
    I love you rach.
    mowgli loves you
    his spirit will always be around you.
    I hope you get a lot of love and comfort at this time.

  2. awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

    glad you found love
    his little spirit with go back into the pond of pure energy, welcomed by loving energy

    the cycle of life

    be at peace nice lady

  3. This made me cry... I'm so sorry. He is your little angel and when you lay your head down to sleep he will be on your pillow there to comfort you. Feel free to feel sad... but remember he was there to make you smile so smile for him and let him know that you are doing okay.

  4. no need to say I cried too, may you find peace and comfort soon, you're a great girl and you were both lucky to have each other, xoxo

  5. This made me cry. So heartbreaking. Sounds like he had an amazing bunch of last moments with you though, and you did your best, he knew how much he was loved, I'm sure. Big hugs.

  6. I'm so sorry for you! I know how hard is is to loose a little friend, even if you two were so close. I'll think of you both...

  7. Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

    When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.
    There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together.
    There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

    All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
    The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

    They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

    You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

    Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....

    Author unknown...

  8. i cried so much reading this.... Your strength astounds me. Im happy to know that your last moments were so precious... Rest in peace precious little mowgli <3


  9. Rachael, I am so, so sorry. I was hoping for better news. Like everyone who has already commented, I am crying. I fell in love instantly with Mowgli when I saw him yesterday & it is horrible to learn that he is no longer wth you. I'm glad you made your last moments together so special. Sending you the biggest cyber hugs.

  10. I am so sad, so dread to think what you are like. As the classic saying goes "if you love someone, sometimes you have to set the free" xxx

  11. Thank you Rachael for posting these pictures and for sharing your last moments with Mowgli with us.
    I can't tell you how greatfull I am that you did what was right for Mowgli.
    I have seen so many people over the years put their pets through so much, just to keep them alive for their sake, not willing to let go. Only to see the dear little animals suffer and live in pain for the rest of their lives. It has shown me an incredible strength in you and a lot of respect for others.
    You will never forget Mowgli, but this pain will go away and you will have nothing but cherished memories. Take as much time as you need to grieve. Keep an eye on your other pets, they will feel the loss as well. When we put our 13 year old pit bull down, our poodle stopped eating, playing, refused to go for walks, and wouldn't get off the couch. My best friend stepped in quickly and brought over a baby kitten, it helped a lot.
    Hugs, xoxoxo

  12. I'm so, so sorry for your loss. I've been a reader for a while but this latest saga has just gripped at my heart. I'm crying at my desk just reading this all. I am so sorry that he had to go at such a young age. I hope you are able to find some peace.

  13. oh my!! what a cute story about pizza. poor little guy. im sorry, i wish it wouldnt have been so hard. sending you hugs!!!

  14. I’m not there with you today but know that I haven’t gone astray.

    I am the wind blowing through your hair and the warmth you feel in the air.

    When that smile creeps on your face, remember that I am in a good place.
    And when you’re feeling sad and down, recall memories of me running around.

    You don’t need to look low and high, just search way deep inside.
    And know that we’ll never be apart, for I have left my pawprints on your heart.

  15. I'm so sorry for your loss Rachel. It looks like you made Mowgli's last moments wonderful for him--thanks so much for sharing this emotional experience with all of us.

  16. When I first read your pup was sick a few days ago I kept thinking of you and Mowgli... I'm so so sorry for your major loss. For me it was one of the hardest times I've ever had to go through because as you very well know, they end up being your best friend. It breaks my heart that his life had to be cut so short but you could tell he had a great life with you and I know he is in doggy heaven eating his favorite foods and playing with his favorite toys!

    Keep your head high lady and hang in there!

  17. Li'doggy was meant to have you in his life, too. xo Thank you for sharing your intimate goodbyes.

  18. i am so sorry, dear. it sounds like he had a wonderful send off.

    sending hugs.

  19. Today is the first time I've stumbled across your blog. I found you via someone else who had posted about Mowgli needing donations. Then I read your latest post and I haven't stopped crying for the past 15 minutes. I know far too well it feels like to have to say goodbye to a beloved pup and my heart absolutely breaks for Mowgli and yourself. Take comfort in knowing that you made the right decision and remember him for the happy pup that he was. I have no doubt that he felt truly loved right up to his last moment. x

  20. I know he misses you a lot, but he's not far from you. He loves you a lot. (:

  21. I just cried like a baby. What a beautiful life, he was so lucky to spend it with a best friend like you. I'm so sorry for your loss, he will always be with you. <3

  22. I couldn't help crying when I read this. Sending love your way!

  23. awww!! this is such a precious tribute. thanks for sharing it with us. hugs from afar!

  24. I'm not ashamed to say I cried as I read this.....Mowgli's spirit will always be with you. Hope the chocolate helped-

  25. Still crying... I'm so sorry!
    but I'm also very glad you could let him go and now you know he is no longer in any pain.
    many many hugs

  26. I'm so sorry for you! We had to put my cat down a couple years ago and I had her for 11 years. I still get choked up when I think about it because she was like my daughter! Keep your head up though! He's no longer in pain which is what is best!

  27. Poor baby. But it was for the best. He is now watching over you. You were an amazing mother to him.

    RIP Mowgli. <3

  28. With heartfelt sympathy..

    Thank you for sharing your intimate last moments with Mowgli and I hope you find solace in those around you.

  29. I'm so so sorry for your loss :( But Mowgli's in a better place now, and I'm sure you'll see him again someday.

    This made me cry.

  30. Oh this makes me tear up. The pictures are sweet and wonderful. At least he was surrounded by love and enjoyed his last day to the fullest. hugs to you, dear

  31. :[ So sorry.
    Love that he was so loved and so happy at the last, and now is in now pain.

  32. I did a little memorial on my blog and people stated how sad that was and sent their love to you. I am so crying right is very special memories you are sharing with us. I send you all the peace and support I can. Your absolutely right about feeling his energy and love. Your a very strong lady, and I truly admire the strength you have shown on helping your little one pass on. Hearts for the both of you, janna lynn

  33. What a sweet post Rachael. I'm so sorry for your loss of little Mowgli! He was such an adorable pup and I know how much you loved and adored him. I think he was a pretty lucky guy to have such a great last day on earth with you and a pizza. I love you lots, you've always been a true friend. I can't believe I haven't seen you since you've come home and I think this is a wrong we need to right, now more than ever. Call or text me any time. I hope you are able to find some comfort in these next few difficult weeks without your little guy.

  34. This was such a touching and heartbreaking post... I am SO sorry that Mowgli took a turn for the worse, and that you had to make the impossible decision to let him go. It sounds like your last time with him was loving and meaningful. I am weeping as I read this and send you some love... I hope you always feel him with you and know that you did the right thing for him. I hope your heart heals quickly and I am SO sorry for your loss. xoxo

  35. this makes my eyes well up in tears. i am so so very sorry for your loss

    renee xo

  36. I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful friend, I sobbed reading your beautiful posts... I believe our friends watch over us, I read a wonderful book called animals and the afterlife by by Kim Sheridan, when I lost my beloved friend it brought me so much comfort...

    Sending you love and light x

  37. Oh Rachael, I'm so sorry. As someone who has a dog and loves them like a family member, I can only imagine how hard this was for you. This post was so sweet, I teared up reading it. I'm sure his spirit is with you.

  38. i wish i could hug you. i'm so sorry. ]: this breaks my heart.

  39. I Think we all miss him! Honestly made me tear up :'( He is such a cutie

  40. Believe in the rainbow bridge ... So Sorry

  41. Rachael, I just read about you in Artful Blogging and had to check out your site. We just lost our one great dog on July 22 and I've been having a really hard time dealing with this. I posted about him on my blog and I think it was really good therapy for me. We still have another dog and I love them both, but the grieving process really sucks, big time!

  42. may mowgli be in a place full of pizzas, all for himself. you'll see him again one day, and when that time comes, he'll walk right up to you.


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