Clarity

A few nights ago we decided to hike up the canyon and watch a scary movie after it got dark. We packed up some blankets, snacks and the laptop and went on our merry way.  It's funny, I didn't know any of these people before I moved back. I was expecting to just hang out with my old group of friends, but I'm happy that I have made some new friends.

I was also very un-photogenic that night.

I straggled a bit (as usual) so I could get lots of pictures while there was good light.

This picture makes me laugh out loud always. The one slouching and walking silly is Bradley, my terrific boyfriend. He thought it would be funny to walk like that. I'm not sure why, I bet he didn't think I would post pictures. The night was fun, even though the laptop died right at the climax of the movie.

My favorite part of the night was going off to take pictures. 

The world was is beautiful, and I think I really needed to be reminded of it.

Lately I've been feeling like my brain is in a fog. It's so hard to explain. I haven't necessarily been sad or happy. I just don't know how I've felt lately. Normally I would wake up with hope in each day... but instead it has been foggy. I felt as if nothing I did mattered.. I felt hopeless.

But today I woke up with a little bit of clarity.

Last night Brad and I talked about how the world is changing, constantly. There isn't anything we can do to slow the change of the world. Things won't always be the way they are now.. at first that thought scared me. But then I realized that change isn't always bad, and most of the time it happens so slowly that we get used to it before we even realize things have changed. Then we talked about religion, free will, and the afterlife. I won't go into details of our discussion, since it lasted hours.. but it helped me gain some clarity in my life again.

Sometimes it seems "the world" doesn't want you to think for yourself. Our hearts and brains are taken out of the picture when it comes to free thinking and free will. Fear is used as a way to manipulate people, and it causes brain fog, confusion and hopelessness. We start to rely on others and the media to tell us what is right and wrong. I think that goes against what our natural instincts and the universe's whispers to us.

I feel like coming to an understanding of these things can help bring clarity. It's important to understand that not one person controls your life except for you... and you are the only one who can make your dreams come true...
And sometimes it's best to sit in a dark room and just think about it all. Focus on yourself, and what you truly want. And it's okay to ask questions about religion and spirituality, and the way you were brought up. It's okay to be yourself, even if it gets you into "trouble."

Because we are all living here together, and this is our only chance to do this..
Let's make our lives beautiful.

"If you realize that all things change,           there is nothing you will try to hold on to.           If you aren't afraid of dying,           there is nothing you can't achieve."